The Eye of The Hurricane

Lately life has been swirling ridiculously fast around Sarah and I. It feels like we were busy before, but the in the last two weeks our load has about doubled. School starting back and Sarah has been putting in some significant overtime. My school started back and this is easily going to be the heaviest workload semester I have had. We are nearing completion of the final projects on the house. Drama has randomly appeared in our small group, which has pretty consistently been a source of life and great joy for us, but now is requiring emotional energy and time to work through some issues. It's just a bump in the road, but a surprise nonetheless. We have been meeting with real estate agents on the house. I spent the morning with a nonprofit organization that I am assembling a series of fundraising documents for. Work for me has been fine, and thankfully less demanding during the last two weeks. This list is just the broad list of items, but the details of it all seem more demanding than we have time or energy for.



I guess when I look at the list, I expect I that should be overwhelmed, depressed, stressed, or angry. Right? That's what you do when life is asking more than you think you can give. But, I have to say that I feel peaceful, content, and mostly hopeful about it all. I expect myself to be irritable and self-absorbed... I just feel at peace. And I don't really think I have done anything different than I normally do.



So my prayers over the past two weeks have been about asking God for grace, but also thanking Him for the peace in the midst of the storm. I wish I had something to point to and say, "This is what makes it different this time." But I don't really. I am semi-exhausted, but really at peace with the whole situation. All I can really say is ,"Thank you God". I do not deserve it, but feel deeply blessed by it.